I try.

I try all day everyday. We all do. I try to be the best I can be and to get through the day according to plan. I try to be what everyone wants me to be and to be there for everyone who needs me. I try to please as many people as I can. My husband, my family, my husbands Family, my friends, even my dogs. I try for these things even if sometimes it's not shown there's always something in the back of my head insecure about pleasing others. If I'm doing a good job, if there's people who don't like me, if all this time I'm Trying and nothing significant happens to me. While all this time I'm putting so much effort into trying to impress and make everyone's else's life comfortable yet I'm beating myself up because I said one thing wrong or because someone came over and I felt my house wasn't clean enough for them and so now I think that they think I'm a slob. Yep, I'll be thinking about that. 

   Now all this time we're thinking of all these things to please everyone yet we're not thinking of pleasing God. We're thinking of giving other people Grace and yet we're not giving ourself any. We are all guilty of this. In fact that's why I'm writing this. Sitting here thinking of all the things I've done wrong,mistakes I've made, insecurities I have. Why am I not giving myself Grace? Why am I not taking care of myself and looking at myself the way God looks at me. The Ultimane One that created the heaven and the Earth ADORES me. He loves me as His child, He gives me grace and mercy and everything I would ever need. He provides me with beautiful people and takes care of my needs. I look outside and see all he gave me and all that he took away knowing how loved I am. The one man who sacrificed his own son for me gives me more Grace then I ever give myself. 

   We all do this. This is what is instilled in us is to be self conscious, is to feel judged and it's so sad. We have a Merciful King that loves us and has made us who we are yet we're insecure about what our own family or the person sitting next to us think. I challenge you (and me) this week to be completely who God made YOU! Seriously, stop hiding your flaws. We're all here for one reason and it's to show the love and grace of God but also to ourselves. We will all feel insecure at one point or another but try your best not to. Tell someone your story and don't apologize, just make sure they know the what an awesome God you have that loves and forgives you. That is the best. Keep trying to be all you can be but don't be too hard on yourself! God is good y'all💕